Blog God the Father by Amanda Grubbs It was in a quaint, beautiful church in Assisi, Italy where I had a realization that I could truly, totally, and fully trust in God. We had spent the day seeing the sights, praying before the San Damiano Cross, eating great food, drinking incredible wine, and strolling the streets that St. Francis and St. Clare had once walked. At that time, I was a junior in college struggling to figure out what the heck God was calling me to do and discerning my vocation. I wanted all the answers, I wanted my husband to appear magically, I wanted to know exactly what I would be doing with the rest of my life, and I wanted to know what was going to happen next. That night I got the answer to my questions, an answer far greater than and the name of a guy, or title of an occupation; it was an answer that changed my life forever. The answer was a deep and satisfying understanding that I could actually trust God. Not just say that I trusted Him or pretend like I trusted Him – but the terrifying, heart pumping, mind racing, I actually give it all over to you do with me what you will, kind of trust. Trusting in God is scary. Trusting in God is risky. Trusting in God might not always seem like the best choice, we would rather trust in ourselves or our money because that makes us more comfortable. Who knows what that God guy will do if we start letting Him take the reigns! Consider for a moment the following: “The sum of your word is truth; and every one of your righteous ordinances endures forever.” “And now, O Lord God, you are God, and your words are true;” this is why God’s promises always come true. (CCC 215) One of the building blocks of trust in any relationship is being able to trust that someone will do what they say they will do. That if they say they will meet you for coffee, they actually show up. Or if they tell you they will finish up your work project for you, that they actually will. Or if they tell you that they will honor and love you till the day that they die, that their actions reflect their words. In order to trust someone you have to trust that they will follow through with their promises – if they don’t do what they say, that trust disappears pretty darn quick. How about when it comes to God? His promises always come true. Period. What does that mean? Think for a moment off the top of your head some of the promises God makes to us. That He is with us always until the end of the world (Matthew 28:20), that He has come to give us life and life to the full (John 10:10), that He will give us good things in our lives because He is our loving Father and all we have to do is ask (Matthew 7:7-11). Or how about the fact that He will give us eternal life if we eat His Body and drink His Blood (John 6:54)? Those sound like some pretty great promises to me. God is truth, which means that He has to keep His promises because it is literally impossible for Him not to. Shouldn’t He be the one we trust the most? God is Truth itself, whose words cannot deceive. This is why one can abandon oneself in full trust to the truth and faithfulness of his words in all things. (CCC 215) It was in that moment in that church in Assisi that I realized that God promises to do what is best for me in my life, and that He promises to love me forever. It was the assurance of His truth and faithfulness, His love and desire for my best that led me to abandon my life to Him. If He was calling me to married life, I trusted He would bring me the best husband. If He was calling me to religious life, I trusted that He would show me the way and give me the strength. If He was calling me to missionary life, I trusted He would open the doors. It got to a point where it didn’t really matter any more what life was going to look like or what was going to happen, because I trusted that God would make what was best for me happen. So in seeking all the answers I got one answer that I simply needed to trust and He would show me the way. It is not easy, and there are even times in my life now where I have to step back from all of my worries and remember that moment when He made His love and worthiness of trust so crystal clear. It is a journey, everyday, to continue to give our lives and ourselves to God and TRUST that He always has our back and our best in mind. And if you struggle too … don’t worry. It has been our problem as a human race since the beginning of time: The beginning of sin and of man’s fall was due to a lie of the tempter who induced doubt of God’s word, kindness, and faithfulness. (CCC 215) If you desire to trust God more but need a little bit more proof of why He is so trustworthy – check out this section of the Catechism of the Catholic Church 214-221. Sit with the words of our Faith, and the words from Scripture and let your hearts be transformed!