Last year I stumbled across a YouTube video that perfectly summarized my relationship with God at that time. Before I go on, I’ll let you watch it.
When I first began my mission year I was very closed to anything that God wanted to do in my heart. I didn’t want Him to “touch me.” I offered my “manta ray” (Much to Jesus’ chagrin – did you see the look on Max’s face? Perfect.) and kept my heart sealed away. God was telling me over and over again how much He wanted me and yet I refused to listen.
Here is another video of that same little boy and girl… And another great analogy of my relationship with Christ.
I spent my whole last year trying to hide from the Lord. And how ridiculous! Where was I hiding that He couldn’t find me? In the closet of an empty room? But He kept pursuing me. It wasn’t until my silent retreat this year that I really allowed the Lord to catch up to me and “touch me” and show me His infinite love. It only happened because I decided I was done running and ready to receive whatever He had for me – which was scary! I had no idea what it would cost me. Yet, when I let it happen I realized it was worth more than I could ever have imagined.
What is keeping you from opening your heart to God? What are you afraid of?
Today take a moment to pray for openness and let the Lord have just the tiniest little bit of space to move. Believe me, you won’t regret it.
