Emily Pellarin

Had a Bad Day?

Ever had a bad day? One of those days when you can’t seem to do anything right? A day when you make mistake after mistake? Well, I have had a bunch of those recently…

I became an official Life Teen Missionary a little over two weeks ago (when I wrote this blog) and so far, the adjustment has been quite a struggle.

After almost three months of waking up pretty much whenever I wanted, I have had to wake up before seven o’clock for holy hour and morning prayer. And I am not a morning person.

Then, I have spent the rest of my days just getting to know the other missionaries. I wouldn’t say I’ve put my best foot forward. I generally consider myself a funny person, but no one has been laughing at the jokes I’ve been telling here. Not exactly a confidence booster.

And even though it’s part of my job to show other people around Covecrest when they come for retreats, I still get lost at camp. Like all the time. It took me a week to find my way to the chapel in the morning without getting lost. And last weekend, I accidentally led some teen girls to a men’s cabin instead of a women’s cabin. Oops.

It wouldn’t be so bad, except that I sometimes feel like I am the only one struggling. My roommate is a morning person. All the other missionaries are hilarious. And I am pretty sure I’ve set a record for the number of times a person has gotten lost in their own backyard.

All of my faults have been on display at Covecrest, and it just makes me feel ridiculous. I want to be the person that has it all together; who can really do the job of a missionary well, but instead I feel like I’ve been falling on my face.

And until today, acknowledging these imperfections, even in prayer, just made me feel worse. But through a blessed conversation, I realized that I am not called to hide my faults or even just downplay them, I am called to bring them to the light, even to boast in them (2 Cor 12:9)!

God’s glory shines brightest in us when people can see that the good we do is obviously not of our own power, but with Christ’s power! So the next time I do make it to the chapel on time, without getting lost, or I tell a funny joke everyone will know that God truly can work miracles!

The next time you feel like everyone can see your mistakes, don’t get discouraged: rejoice! Pray for the courage to acknowledge your weaknesses so that Christ can shine through you!

“I will rather boast gladly of my weaknesses in order that the power of Christ may dwell with me. Therefore I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and constraints for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Emily Pellarin

About the Author

I have a nose ring, green beans are my favorite vegetable, and I wear mismatched socks for fun. Sneaking into to old churches is a hobby of mine. After serving all over the country, God let me come back to be a missionary in my hometown of St. Louis. I have the privilege of living in Ferguson and loving the teens there is my job. I couldn't love it more. I would love to pray for any intentions you may have. Just email me at [email protected] or tweet at me @LT_EmPell. P.S. God loves you. A lot.