Has God ever revealed to you something and for some reason you think you know more than He does, so you say, “Nope, sorry God. You’re wrong.” Well, for the longest time that was my situation.
What was God revealing?
God was trying to tell me that I needed healing! Healing from what? I needed healing from the pain, wounds, humiliation, and anxiety I suffered from over six years of being bullied as a teenager. The Lord revealed to me that this is a reality and unless I allow Him to fix it, I would not be able to move forward.
How did he reveal it?
So when the Lord is trying to tell you something He may take several steps if you don’t listen the first time. He might tell you over and over again until you get it (well I didn’t) or He may send someone else to tell you (well I didn’t listen). It took an eight-day silent retreat for me to really listen!
On this retreat, I dove deep into scripture, attended daily mass, had opportunities for the Sacrament of Reconciliation, and was invited into an intense rhythm of prayer (try five hours of Adoration in one day!). That’s what God had to do in order to get through to me.
After being fully opened by God’s grace, the Lord then brought me to a pile of emotional mush. I spent an hour and a half crying my eyes out until I had no other option but to scream, “Help!” It was there in that moment that the Lord came and held me in His arms, loved me, and said “Your faith has saved you. You are healed my child.”
What does this mean?
It means that when God speaks – listen!
But also, bullying or being bullied is not funny; it’s a big deal. If you’re reading this and you’re the bully, in the name of Jesus Christ, who loves you and the other person, stop! If you’re the one being bullied, ask for help. First, ask God and then to go an adult you trust (parent, teacher, youth minister, etc.).
I know the wounds can be deep; trust me, I’ve been there.
I spent six years of my life terrified to walk into school. I spent six years trying to figure out what to wear, how to act, what to do in order for the bullying to stop. I started hanging out with the “cool kids,” but it only got worse, so I joined the sport teams and clubs, and that didn’t help, so I decided to just give up.
Giving up was the worse decision I could have made. By giving up, I allowed myself to continue to be hurt, both physically and emotionally. And by giving up, I did not leave room for God to help me. I wasn’t doing anything to cause the bullying, but I wasn’t calling on God for help.
Invite God into your pain.
I wish I knew then what I know now. God wants to help you, He wants to heal you from any pain or suffering. First, ask for His help and invite Him into the situation. Pray, invite him into your pain, and ask Him for healing. Also, you should pray for the other person as well; God knows they need His help just as much. Plus, He did say, “love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you” (Matthew 5:44).