My heart was locked….

Let’s go a couple months back in time… to my Easter break. I know, it’s September, summer is over and we’re not in Easter time anymore in our liturgical year, but I still want to take you back to my Easter break for a moment.

I was able to spend this Easter break with a great and holy family in West-Texas, a huge blessing from God. When I arrived they warned me to be careful when I walked outside: their doors locked very easily, so there was a chance that I would lock myself out if I didn’t pay attention. That didn’t happen luckily – wouldn’t have been so much fun in the Texas heat – but it made me think about how easy I lock other things…like my heart.

Sometimes it’s even easier to lock my own heart than to lock the door of my house. Isn’t that crazy? It’s so easy to be afraid, nervous, or ashamed  and close my own heart to the people around me and even to God! God created my heart, but sometimes I don’t trust Him enough to open my heart to Him. I know that’s not how God created me to be. He wants to be in a deep and intimate relationship with me. He is waiting for me, His heart longs for my heart… and what do I do? I kick Him out and lock my heart because I’m too afraid to really trust God with my heart – the heart He made, the heart He knows even better than I know my own heart – but I’m still saying: no thanks, I don’t need Your help, I don’t want Your Love… I feel way safer when I just lock my heart and do it all myself.

Fast forward to the middle of summer camp…

We had the blessing to have Ben Walther with us as one of the musicians during our weeks of summer camp. He did a great job leading us in worship. One of the songs he played is from his new album contains the following line: “My heart was locked, but You had the key – make Your home in me.”

The first time I heard that song I started crying. All of sudden I understood what I was doing. In my mind I saw Jesus standing before me with the keys of my heart, waiting until I was ready and willing to let Him in. There’s nothing He desires more than to live in my heart, but He loves me so much that He’s willing to wait until I let Him in. It is my choice: am I willing to trust Him and share my whole heart with Him? After realizing how much He loves me there’s nothing else I can do than say yes to Him, than let Him open my heart and live in it, work in it, heal it and restore it. God loves me so much that He wants to do that for me – how can I refuse that?

So I’m trying to let God open my heart more and more. It’s takes courage to run to Him everyday and pray: Yes, I trust You. I want You to open my heart; I want to share with You what’s going on in my heart and I want You to heal my heart where necessary. I am committed to surrender every day, over and over again. Sometimes it’s hard, sometimes it’s painful, but it’s always beautiful and worth it.

God is so loving… we can’t even imagine what He does in our hearts and how He changes our lives if we give Him a change to move in our hearts. Are you willing and ready to let God unlock YOUR heart?

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I was born in the South of The Netherlands and God led me to America to become a Life Teen Missionary in September 2011. I love reading, crafts and movies, but most of all: I'm in love with Jesus! I love to serve Him as a Life Teen Missionary in Atlanta this year! Feel free to e-mail me at [email protected]