Not My Plan But Yours!

When I applied for Life Teen Missions, I applied for only one year. I knew I had to go back and finish school in six years so that I don’t have to pay back the money I got from the government. Until January, I thought this was God’s plan for me, even though I never prayed about how long God wanted me to be in Life Teen Missions. I was really stubborn in this. After my eight-day silent retreat, I talked to someone, and he told me he thought I really had to stay another year and told me to pray about it. Stubborn as I am, I said, “I don’t think so. I think God wants me to go back to school.”

In an holy hour in January, after this conversation, I was reading through the gospel of Luke. I was not praying about staying another year. At one point in chapter 12 verses 22-24 it says, “Do not worry about your life and what you will eat, or about your body and what you will wear. For life is more than food and the body is more than clothing. Notice the ravens they do not sow or reap; they have neither a store house nor barn, yet God feeds them, how much more important are you than birds!” And I thought,  “O my God: you are asking me to stay another year, aren’t you?” My first reaction was, “I can’t stay another year. I have to finish school. How am I going to pay the money back and provide for my second year of missions at the same time?”  So I kind of said no.

The next day in morning prayer, the same bible verse came up in the Life Teen Missions rule of life. I laughed and thought it was funny that it came up again, but I also realized that God might have been making a point. So I prayed, “God, if you want me to do a second year, you have to destroy my plan of getting back into school.” I hoped God would not do that, but He did. The next day, I tried to apply on the internet to get back in to school, and every time I tried to log-in, the website kicked me out. After that, I knew for sure that God wanted me to stay another year.

A few weeks later, we had community prayer with the whole community, and while we were praying, someone shared the same Bible verse I heard very often about not worrying. No one knew at this point that I was thinking about staying another year. After a lot more of these random situations, I decided I had to stay another year, and trust the Lord that He will provide money-wise for me to be able to pay back the money for school and also to have enough mission partners for me to stay another year.

Ever since I decided to stay another year, God is still convincing me I made the right decision. I was talking to someone at the Life Teen convention, and he told me to spend some time in Matthew chapter 6. Guess what is said in that chapter? The exact same thing and even more. Matthew 6:30, “If God so clothes the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you. O you of little faith?”

I challenge you to give your worries to God today. He is faithful and will provide for all of your needs!

About the Author

my name is Willeke, I am 20 years old and i am originally from the Netherlands. I love doing gymnastics and singing. i went to a life teen parish in the Netherlands for 5 years, and started college before God destroyed my life and called me to life teen missions. I can not imagine doing something different now! i absolutly love it. I love to journey with teens and leet them closer to Christ!