I wish the Lord would just come out and blatantly shout out to me what it is that He wants me to do. I’m sure I’m not the only one that would really appreciate something like that. Coming into this mission year here at Covecrest, I was thinking that it was going to be a one-year commitment for sure, but I wouldn’t totally shut the Lord out if He had other plans for me. Sure enough, you give Him a little space to work with and He will start constructing something the size of the Empire State Building. I was able to go home to Clearwater, Florida for Easter a few weeks ago, and heading into this break I was almost 99% sure that I would be going home after this year, but I still didn’t want to close it down for another opportunity to serve with Life Teen Missions. That 1% that I left open has allowed the Lord to move in very big ways to the point where I can honestly say that I’m not sure what I’ll be doing next year. I have so many desires, but I, like many people, have a really hard time figuring out which desires are mine and which desires are the Lord’s.
Some of the desires on my heart for wanting to go back home have to do with my home parish, St. Catherine of Siena. This parish has supported me so much in every way I can think of. I would really love to go back and get involved in youth ministry again by being part of the Core teams for Life Teen and Edge. In December last year, I was fortunate enough to go on a foreign mission trip to Haiti and would love so much to have the opportunity to lead one from my home parish back to Haiti. School has also come up a lot in my prayers. My first year of college, I went in right out of high school and didn’t have my head on straight. I wasn’t focused. I was awarded the maximum amount of financial aid with the Pell Grant and wrapped the idea in my head that since it wasn’t really my money, it wouldn’t hurt me if I didn’t do well. That was a bad way to go into something as important as college. I now feel like I have an idea of what I want to do later on in my life, which is something I didn’t have last year. I really feel like I want to teach in high school, preferably to teach theology and combine that with one of my other huge passions, sports, and help coach the football or baseball team.
This past week, I was able to go down with the new team of missionaries that will be serving at Life Teen Missions’ Atlanta base next year. A few months ago, a group of high school men came up here to camp, and I was their group contact, so I was able to hang out with them and journey with them on their weekend retreat. I had an awesome connection with these young men and their teachers who were the teen’s chaperones. That is what really started inching away at my heart a desire to go and serve in Atlanta. I was able to visit the high school that these guys go to and also found out that volunteering at this school is a big part of the Atlanta mission. I was catching up a little bit before Mass with one of the teachers that had come up to camp and was talking to him about my discernment, and He told me about the possibility of helping coach the football team since He is one of the coaches. I, of course, was really excited, and still am, to have that kind of opportunity, but I have to really pray about how the mission in Atlanta will work with our mission team and not just myself being a part of this particular mission.
So, needless to say the Lord is doing a lot in my heart right now. I ask for your prayers for my continued discernment and would love to hear from you. If you need any prayers or have a similar situation going on in your life, I would love to pray for you as well. Please email me at [email protected]
Peace and Prayers,