Yes, Confession. I never thought I would say that because until last week, I hated going to Confession. It was hard for me to say everything I did wrong to a priest. Every time I went to Confession, I decided beforehand what to say and what not to say. I held things back on purpose. Every time I left Confession, I would feel worse, and I could never figure out why.
It was on my heart for a few months to go to Confession and to be completely honest about everything. I talked about it with another Life Teen missionary and decided to go and to be completely honest. So I did. My Confession took an hour because this time I held nothing back. A priest told me that if I intentionally did not confess some sins that my Confession didn’t count. He said that your sins are not forgiven if you are not completely honest. So I had to confess everything I did in two years, because that was my last good Confession. But it was so awesome! I felt like I was really talking to God instead of talking to a priest.
The priest told me that from the moment of absolution I would be a new person. I didn’t believe him at first because I had never felt that way before. Looking back, I think it is because I was never completely honest. How could I expect to get anything out of Confession if I did not really confess the hard stuff? This time was different. When the priest prayed the prayer of absolution and my sins were forgiven, I physically felt a burden lifting off my shoulders and I actually did feel like a new person. I walked away feeling so happy. In previous Confessions, I still felt guilty afterwards but this time I felt that I was truly forgiven.
Sometimes I still struggle with the feeling of guilt, but I have to remind myself that God already forgave me and that I should forgive myself as well. Jesus died for us on the cross so that we can live.
When we are completely honest in Confession, we open the door for Jesus to love us in a special way. I challenge you to go to Confession and to be honest about everything and let God free you from every sin you have so you can be completely free – especially during this Christmas season.