I wouldn’t say that I am always a humble person. There are times when I let my pride get in the way and it causes a distance in my relationship with others and sometimes with Christ. In Matthew 18: 3-4, Christ said: “Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” Recently, I was able to turn and become like that child and humble myself to let others serve me.
A couple weeks ago, all of the men took two days to go hiking and camping to build a stronger brotherhood. My heart was excited to be surrounded by God’s creation with all of my brothers, to share our life with one another, and to praise the Lord, but my body was saying, “I don’t know if I can do this,” because I knew that the hike was going to be 6-7 hours long and cross a river, about knee high, 22 times before we reached our destination. As I looked at my hiking backpack and the djembe on top of it, I thought, “All right. Let’s do this,” and I ignored how much I thought I couldn’t handle it. As hours passed by, I got tired, and my muscles started to cramp up. My fellow brothers offered many times to help carry some of the stuff, but my pride got in the way, and I told them that I could do it on my own.
On the way hiking back to go home, I got to my breaking point where I knew I needed some help to carry my stuff. I looked around, but my brothers were far ahead or far behind. I started turning to God like a child, asking Him for the strength to continue hiking or for Him to send someone to help me, because I couldn’t go forward any longer. I also asked Mother Mary to intercede for me, and I began to reciting the Hail Mary a couple of times.
One of my brothers, Mike Barry, caught up to me shortly and offered to help, but my pride continued to get in the way. He insisted that he would carry my backpack and djembe for a while. Romans 12:3 says, “For by the grace given to me I tell everyone among you not to think of himself more highly than one ought to think, but to think soberly, each according to the measure of faith that God has apportioned.” At that moment, I knew God had sent Mike at the right time, so I surrendered and gave Mike everything to carry – just like a child who could not do anything on his/her own, but had to surrender and ask for help. By surrendering everything, I allowed Mike to receive grace by letting him serving me, and in return I received his love and a stronger brotherhood.
Today, I feel the Lord is asking me to know my limit and to be that child that would turn to Him for help. If I want to build stronger relationships, I need to allow others to receive grace by letting them serve me in any way they can – whether if I can do it or not. It does not matter how much pride we have. We must allow ourselves to be humble and let other serve the Lord by serving us.
“…With all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another through love.” – Ephesians 4:2