So I heard a homily this weekend from this awesome Deacon that comes up to camp frequently and in his homily he told this story. A priest was talking to a group of kids at his Catholic school and he posed the question to them, “Do you want to go to Heaven? Who in this room wants to go to Heaven?” Of course all their little hands rose in the air, but then he added more emphasis, “ Do you really want to go to Heaven? If you really wanted to go to Heaven then why is it so hard to give an hour of your week to go to mass? If you really wanted to go to Heaven then why does Jesus sit alone in that Chapel all day? Why can you not even spend 5 minutes a day with Jesus who waits for you in that Chapel?” So I’m thinking to myself, WOW…conviction.
We are very blessed here to have a lot of opportunities to pray, and we get to pray a lot. We start every morning and close out every evening with prayer, and we do a holy hour each day, it is part of our rule of life that we have agreed to live by. And It is so accessible! I mean, how many people can say that they can walk to their back yard and go visit Jesus. I think where the conviction comes in is how much of this do I do out of obligation and how much do I do out of desire, out of a hunger and thirst to be in His presence. If I truly wanted to go to Heaven, and if I truly believed that Jesus was sitting in that Chapel waiting for me, then I should not be able to even walk by it without thirsting to visit him.
This morning in morning prayer we prayed Psalm 63 (Sunday week 1) and it says, “O God, you are my God, for you I long; for you my soul is thirsting. My body pines for you like a dry weary land without water. So I gaze on you in the sanctuary to see your strength and your glory.” I want to thirst for God like that, I mean, I feel like if I really wanted to go to Heaven, then I would have that kind of hunger and thirst like the Saints. If I really understood the message of the Cross, what would my life look like? Jesus died on the cross for me, to save my life! Jesus is God, God is my father. If my earthly father died to save my life, how differently my life would look. Every second of every day I would live for him, if I didn’t I would feel like my father died in vain. So why don’t I live every second of every day for Jesus?
The reality is this, I desire to be in Heaven, I desire to hunger and thirst for God like the Saints, I desire to live every second of every day for Jesus. I can’t will myself to love Jesus more. It is only by His grace that my desire can be met. I heard another awesome homily this week by a visiting priest named Father Nick that sums it all up. He quoted St Theresa of Avila when she said, “God takes as much delight in our desires as if they were already carried out.” And she also states, “God never fails to repay every good desire in this life.” Let us pray that God will meet our desire to increase our hunger and thirst for him, to spend more time with Him in the chapel and to be united with Him in Heaven. Thanks for all your prayers, know that you are being prayed for!