All I’ve ever wanted out of my relationships is to feel safe.
I’m always worried that I’ll make someone so angry that they won’t want to have anything to do with me. I want to know that I’m worth someone’s time and effort; that they’ll stick around when things get rough.
But people always fall short. We’re imperfect and broken and there’s no escaping that. Show me someone who’s got it together all the time and I’ll show you someone who’s wearing a mask. People are unpredictable and it’s scary.
Except for him. There’s this one guy I met who makes me feel so safe.
He makes me feel like a million bucks. He doesn’t care if I want to talk or if I want to just sit in silence with him.
He doesn’t even care if I wear yoga pants every evening.
I feel so lucky to have met a guy like this because he is the most understanding and forgiving person ever. He knows I’m not perfect and he’s okay with that. When I fail (as I often do), he sees that as a chance to prove his love for me. Isn’t that amazing? I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. He loves me.
Yeah, I said it . . . he loves me. And I love him too. We’re even at the point where we say it to each other. Not that our love is easy because everyone knows love isn’t all sugar fairies and unicorns. There are times when the warm, fuzzy feelings aren’t there for me… but that’s okay.
Love is strongest and purest when it’s a willful choice not an effortless, gravity-free fall. Of course, when you’re falling in love it’s wonderful and blissful, but staying in love requires a lot more effort. It’s a choice you make; sometimes it even means that you have to set aside your own selfish desires for the sake of the one you love. It can be difficult, but it’s also joyful because love is always worth it in the end.
True love like that makes you feel safe.
I know that he’d do anything for me no matter what I am able to do for him. I feel safe because I know he loves me so much that he’d die for me…
I mean… he’d die for me again if he had to… because he already did die for me. And rise from the dead for me. And humble himself to be present in the Eucharist for me. And wait in the tabernacle for me. And wait in the confessional to forgive me. And wait all day for my attention. And reach out to me all day to do little things to remind me he’s there, and that he’s looking out for me, and that he’s always going to take care of me.
My Love has never let me down. He is the reason I feel safe and sound.
And he wants to do the same for you. Will you let him? It starts with just saying His name and asking Him to be part of your life. Close your eyes and say, “Jesus, help to be aware of your love today and to love you back with my whole heart.”
I promise you won’t ever regret it.
I’m praying for you.