I want you to know how much I love you even though I’m not with you anymore. I was really scared the other day, but I’m ok now.
I woke up to your crying and all of a sudden I felt a force like no other. I gripped my tiny hands into your flesh, but I was no match. I felt like I was being sucked away. And then came the pain. Mommy . . . it really hurt. The doctor tore me from your womb and placed my body like garbage on the cold table. I hoped you would hear me, but my cries were not enough. I needed you Mommy. I know that all the pain I felt yesterday is nothing compared to the pain you must feel. I’m sorry you’re hurt too . . . I love you.
Mommy, what happened? Why have you pushed me away? I was robbed of a home and a family that I needed. Why didn’t you want me?
I pray for you everyday now. I pray that you’ll open your ears to something besides what the world tells you. I met the most wonderful person. After all the pain, I felt arms reach out to me and pull me close. I hoped it to be you, but it was a man. He spoke nothing but kind words and told me He was my Father and Savior. He held me close and told me everything was alright. The way He laughs and smiles and expresses His immense joy, makes me feel so loved.
He talks about you too, as if He’s known you all of your life. He whispers blessings over your soul and keeps placing people and things in your life that you need. He is sad though. He loves you and keeps chasing after you, but you keep pushing and hiding.
Mommy this man told me He forgives you, though I’m not sure what He means. He knows so much and His heart bleeds for your pain. He told me a story as I sat upon His lap about how He died. He told me that He loved the world so much that He died so that everyone can have life. He’s welcomed me into His home, and it’s beautiful. It’s everything we’ve ever wanted, needed, and imagined. There’s a place next to mine that’s empty, and He says He’s saving it for a special person.
I watch you everyday, and I hug you as you sleep. I kiss your cheeks as tears stream down them. This man told me His name today mommy. He said His name is Jesus. We heard you speaking to us today and it made both of us so happy. Oh, how I’ve missed your delicate voice. He told me that you have great things in your future as you walk to find Him. He also told me whom the special place next to me is for. I wanted to tell you that it’s for you some day! Have hope Mommy, you’ll be lonely no more.
Mommy everything is going to be better now. I’m happy here! There is so much peace in this place. Don’t ever forget that I love you.