Christina Mead

"Dear Jesus": On Mass and Adoration

Dear Jesus,

I love you so much. You are my everything. I don't know what I would do without you. Life can be hard sometimes. Ok, actually a lot of times. It never seems to stop throwing me curveballs and catching me off guard. Things can be overwhelming and then it's easy to be emotional. I love how I can always talk to you and feel close to you throughout my day but especially at Mass and adoration. I never stop feeling your love and your presence there. You're so great.

Sorry that sometimes I get distracted at Mass. It's so easy to get caught up in everything going on and forget the incredible miracle that's happening right in front of me. But then again, I don't find it hard to re-focus myself because of this great mystery that the Eucharist is. I can't believe that you humble yourself behind a piece of bread every single day countless times all over the world. And that you want to come and dwell within me – of all people.

You hide all your glorious splendor in order to be close to me … who can't handle seeing or holding all that glory. I can't believe I mean that much to you. When I receive you in the Eucharist my whole body and soul feels more peaceful. I can tell as I consume you, that your love is consuming me. I've never felt so close to anyone as I do to you in the Eucharist. And the best part is that it never gets old. You constantly are able to love me like I need, strengthen me for my day and speak personally to my heart. All I have to do is get out of bed and show up.

I'm sitting right now in Adoration. Well, you know that … you know everything. But as I'm looking at you in the Eucharist, I feel like we're best friends, just sitting and talking.

I know that Mass is the high point of our relationship because it's when you and I become one, so that your life flows through my veins. You are the one I love and I want to be as closely united with you as possible – like when I receive Holy Communion. I will never give that up because I don’t ever want to be separated from you.

But in Adoration, we can just look at each other, just hang out. Your gaze hits me and all I can say is 'I'm nothing without you.' Being there in your presence prolongs and extends what happened in Mass, when we were united. In the silence of Adoration, you help me process what's been going on in my life. I love when you just simply remind me who I am, and how you're taking care of me.

I'm really thankful for you. Especially the ways you love me in the Eucharist. I don't know what else to say. There aren't anymore words.



Christina Mead

About the Author

I'm just striving for sainthood through lots of imperfect ways. I daydream about heaven, where I want to be the patron saint of lifeguards. I think I might paint my nails just so I can pick it off. I wrote a book about Mary and what she taught us about being a Catholic girl. It's called "That One Girl" and I think you'd like it! You can email me at [email protected], or follow me on Twitter @LT_Christina.